SelahNox

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The Things I Can't Say by SelahNox, literature

All I (M)ask of You by SelahNox, literature

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All I (M)ask of You

Person 1: No more smiles in public, Forget your social fears Be masked, no one will see you Your mask will help protect you. Let it be your freedom Let masking soothe your fears You’re masked, covid won’t find you It guards and it hides you Person 2: Say you’ll stay masked if you’re standing near me. Please don’t come within six feet of me. Say my safety is important to you Promise me that my health matters too That’s all I ask of you Person 1: Let it be your helper. Let it aid your fight. Your safe, if you will wear it. Please say you’ll grin and bear it. Person 2: All I want is freedom For covid to be gone. But now, covid is with us. We’ll face what is before us. Person 1: Then say you'll wear it You have many options Red, Green, Blue, and Even sequins too Say you'll care about my safety dearly Promise me (I'll wear mine too). That's all I ask of you. Person 2: Say you’ll wear it on your every moment. Say the word and I will join you. Share this burden with me until it’s

Ghosts by SelahNox, literature

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Ghosts

My ghosts live in your old bedroom where you once laid your head. They stand there in the doorway and with my trauma, they are fed. I greet them in the morning and they torture me at night. I can see them in the daytime and the daze of purple lights. I peeled colored paper off the walls, and found scars still resting there. I wish I couldn’t see them, my mind is far too bare. We lived such different lives here, so close, yet not at all. We ran away into the world, and in hard times, we fall. I say that I don't blame you, I know it’s not your fault. But when the night has gone too long, tears and anger burn my heart. I stare i

A Friday Mourning by SelahNox, literature

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A Friday Mourning

In the darkness I lay broken, as the ashes fall around. My hope shattered into pieces on the unforgiving ground. Helpful strangers gather 'round me slogans ready on their lips. "Why can’t you stop and find some joy? You should try to feel the Spirit!" But a bitter cold is blowing, there’s no sun yet here for me. Sunday, they say, is coming on the Friday’s dark and deep. I know that when that day comes, I will laugh and shout, and leap. But for now I’m much too lost to try, so at the tomb, I wait and weep. You should know that I am ready, for the darkness to retreat. Don't try to force my healing, just stay and wait

A Phase by SelahNox, literature

Part of that Ward by SelahNox, literature

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Part of that Ward

Look at this cuff Isn't it neat? Wouldn't you think my restraints are complete? Wouldn't you think I'm the girl The girl who’s been… committed Look at these meds Stashed under my bed Will the mania ever end? Lookin' around here you'd think (Sure) she's a bit crazy I've got anti-psychotics and sleep aids a plenty I've got SSRIs galore (You want personality? I got twenty) But who cares? No big deal I want more I want to be where my people are I want to see want to see 'em screamin' Walkin' around with that (Whad'ya call 'em?) oh – nurse Flippin' your lid you don't get too far Jackets are needed for wigglin',

My Sister's Keeper by SelahNox, literature

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My Sister's Keeper

There’s a dent on the side of my car where my sister kicked it during one of her episodes. I was home for winter break, and we were sharing the car. I don’t remember what started the panic attack that brought her to rage, but I remember sitting in my car with my eyes closed. Listening as she stomped her feet on the ground and kicked the side of my car. There have been days when all of my strength has gone into calming her down. But I wouldn’t trade her for the world. My sister’s been through her fair share of trials since her first episodes in high school. I watched, from a distance at first,

A Secret by SelahNox, literature

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A Secret

The sky that day had the same mopey gray as the walls of Annie’s shabby apartment. Annie stared out of the window from the desk in her living room, sipping slowly on a cup of coffee, a pen held in her free hand. The hardest part was trying to decide what to write to her sister after five years with no contact. In truth, in hadn’t been Annie’s idea at all to send the letter. She’d been cleaning one several pictures in Sophia’s mansion of a home. Sophia was telling her some story about that day, the trouble her brother, Christopher, had gone through to hire to a photographer, only for his k

Acceptance by SelahNox, literature

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Acceptance

"Did she want to be buried or cremated?" people would ask. 'Who should come to the funeral?' And no one would know. The people, whoever they were, would just look at each other's shoes or shoulders until the silence settled in and then someone would put on a pot of coffee, briskly and with a fair amount of clatter. Coffee goes great with sudden death. – Dark Places by Gillian Flynn "Four girls are dead. Four of our girls are dead: Kandis, Robyne, Dee, Donyell." I stood in the dorm lobby listening to the whispers students exchanged about the accident that happened two hours before. "Does anyone know which Robyne

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Ghosts

A Friday Mourning by SelahNox, literature

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A Friday Mourning

A Phase by SelahNox, literature

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My Sister's Keeper

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A Secret

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Join the Waiting List for DeviantArt Eclipse

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UPDATE: Eclipse is now released to all deviants! Click the "Eclipse" toggle on the top navigation to try Eclipse. Thanks to the efforts of AriBanks and her supporters, you’ve gotten a glimpse of DeviantArt Eclipse. So now you probably want in? We’re stoked that you want access to the new redesign and to experience DeviantArt in dark or light. To get DeviantArt Eclipse: Favourite this journal Comment below (and while you’re at it, feel free to tag a friend or two who may want to try it too!) We’ll add you to our growing list of deviants interested in stepping into the new phase with Eclipse. Keep in mind Eclipse will be steadily rolled out to deviants in batches over the coming weeks and months, so don’t fret if you haven’t received a notification just yet!

Acceptance by SelahNox, literature

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Acceptance

Hopelessness? by InheritableLegacy, literature

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Hopelessness?

What make you think you're hopeless? "Because I am!" You do not convince me... You were not the embodiment of a perfect failure or pure worthlessness or unfulfilled rational purpose Because I've been with you for a long while And loved you for all that time So I've seen all your triumphs All your smiles All your good days. So I ask again: What makes you think you're hopeless? "Because you are!" Now we're getting somewhere...

Celebrating 20 years of magic: A tribute to Harry by BeccaJS, journal

Celebrating 20 years of magic: A tribute to Harry

Jun 26, 2017

June 26th, 1997: 20 years Today... Bloomsbury UK published a print run of 500 copies of the first edition of a series of unique books. A children's series about the life of a small teenage boy, who thought he was just ordinary- but in fact he was so much more than extraordinary. It brought the fantasy back into the limelight, leaguing up against lord of the rings and bringing with it children who found interest in reading. Joanne Rowling started a phenomenon that defined a generation. Harry Potter For many of us, we grew up with Harry Potter. We queued up for midnight openings and stayed up all night reading the books desperate to avoid sp

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Welcome flashers one and all! During the 24 hours of June 24th (in their respective time zones), the people listed here will be attempting to produce as many flash fiction pieces (between one and one thousand words inclusive in length) as possible. If you haven't signed up already, it's not too late! Just leave a comment on this sign-up journal letting me know you're a new writer who wants to join in. You can then leave a link to your Flash Fiction Day deviation below. Separating sign-ups and submissions like this makes it easier for me to work out if I'm adding a whole new participant to the event or if I'm just pasting a deviation thumbnai

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Love DA Lit: Issue 267

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Welcome to the two-hundred sixty-seventh issue of Love DA Lit! Every Sunday this article aims to promote volunteer opportunities, various resources, prompts, challenges, workshops, and contests. This is by no means a complete list of all the literature going-ons, merely a tool to help you get involved and stay informed. Navigation Literature Links | Workshops, Prompts and Challenges Literature Contests | Resources Literature Community Relations | Contact Me Literature Links :new: FFM 2017 Preamble and FFM 2017 SIGN UP PAGE :new: Continue to give some thanks and love to brennennn (https://www.deviantart.com/brennennn) for his time as Lit CV! :new: Flash Fiction Competiti

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Under the Rainbow by SelahNox, literature

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Under the Rainbow

I’d never considered that I might have a place in the rainbow. I’m eleven years old, sitting on the couch in a friend’s musty trailer, listening while her mom goes on another one of her usual biblical rants. She’s talking about “the gays” as she always calls them, making it very clear to us that she doesn’t approve. She tells us that they’re all going to hell. I’m barely listening. I wonder what she’d say if I admitted that I like girls. I decide not to test it. I’d only ever heard the opinions that my friend’s mom peddled every time I came over. M

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

July 18, 1996
United States
Deviant for 14 years
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My Bio

Stephanie or Selah

She, Her, Hers

I am a graduate/seminary student from small town, USA. I recently graduated with my Bachelor of Arts in Religious Studies (with a minor in Psychology!) and I'm back in school for my Master of Divinity. I’m studying to become either a pastor or a chaplain, but not sure which. I have a passion for ministry, social justice, and mental health advocacy (I have bipolar II, and do not care who knows). I’m quite religious, but not the judgey kind, I promise.

I’m more of a writer than an artist, as one could probably tell from looking at my profile. I enjoy writing flash fictions and short stories, though I have attempted larger projects. I enjoy writing creative non-fiction, as well realistic fiction.

When I’m not writing, I’m probably playing Assassin’s Creed (II, Brotherhood, and Black Flag are my personal favorites!) or Skyrim. I love video games, music, hanging out with friends, and all that jazz. I’m a huge fan of showtunes, my favorites being The Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserable, Chicago, and CATS.

I can usually be found lurking in the #WriteRoom on dAmn, but I also have a personal chat: #LeOperaHouse.

I love making new friends! Feel free to stop by my chat and say hello.

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Favourite Movies

The Phantom of the Opera

Favourite TV Shows

Bones, NCIS, Grey's Anatomy, Archer, Bob's Burgers, Midsomer Murders

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Shinedown, Skillet, My Chemical Romance

Favourite Books

White Oleander, Dark Places, Sharp Objects, No Graven Image

Favourite Writers

Gillian Flynn, George R. R. Martin

Favourite Games

Skyrim, Minecraft, The Sims 3, Assassin's Creed

Favourite Gaming Platform

Xbox 360

Tools of the Trade

Pencil and paper

Other Interests

Religion, psychology

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Hey how've you been?

Hey! I've been mostly busy with school and trying keep my mental health chill. How about you?

Nichrysalis

Apr 10, 2020

Mostly the same, but replace school with work. Good to see you're still here. I'm trying to come back to this place more and more.

SelahNox

Apr 10, 2020

That's good. Yeah, I'm not here very often but I come lurk every now and then. Don't have much time for writing that isn't pastoral or academic, but put things up sometimes.

Teague-Drydan

Jul 18, 2018

Happy Birthday!!! I hope you have a blessed & fantabulous day!!

JJJMadness

Jul 18, 2018

Fofurastro

Jul 17, 2018

Happy Birthday! Party

I hope this day is radiant with joy, and enjoyed with the best companies.
I wish that your whole life is wonderful and infinitely happy. Enjoy your day!

_ByCamaro--Princess